Wednesday, 4 December 2013

What do you want to be

In this world, you are constantly pressured to be something, but I don't want to be anything.
I don't want diplomas or high positions or to become rich, I don’t want to even be considered “something”.
I keep waking up in the middle of the night asking myself "what am I going to do with my life?"
I find the idea that I could always kill myself, soothing (not so healthy, I know).
but I chose to live, and even if I end up as a disappointment to everyone, I will be true to myself, even if it meant that I will end up poor or hated by majority, I want the simple life and I want the struggle, so I can learn how to create an alternative and use different tactics from the ones used today to fight.
I want to create a space for people like me, a place to run to, and attempt to empower them and support them.
We are a minority but our strength would come from our love and union and knowledge.
We are desperate, desperate to live, in a system that was created in a way to limit us and suffocate us and make it harder for us to rebel against it.
Nour merheb said that real freedom is only attained through the state of not being. Lately I understood his words better than ever, but I want to keep on trying Nour, even if I never attain it, I will keep on trying to break free from these chains.