New year’s eve and most people are writing their resolutions.
I am one of these people with a bucket list, but I am also one of these people who end up losing and forgetting that list. Then, out of nowhere, I stumble on it and realize that I have accomplished most of the things on it.
It was never planned and it didn’t feel that I have had a life of accomplishments.
New year’s eve to me is a time to look back more than look forward.
A time to introspect, to analyze and conclude (we don’t have to do that simply on new year’s eve).
I have accomplished a lot.
I have managed to overcome most of the things from my childhood that held my growth back.
I have managed to become a closer image of the ideal person that I want to be, a more patient, empathetic, balanced and alive person.
I have lost people, barely stayed in contact with even the closed ones, but I have made such great peace with my philosophy of “for each his/her own”.
I do not want this philosophy to be misinterpreted as not seeing the other.
It is important to help one another, but it is also important to grow as “individuals” and depend on ourselves for growth.
I have met people with whom i shared meaningful experiences that i will always cherish.
This year was the first year of actions, all the thoughts and dreams and ideas turned into practice.
The explosion in achrafiye made me furious, and I learned how to transfer my anger into actions to help.
I wanted to listen and comfort people, so I did with the free huggers.
I have always wanted to work in a hospital and I have finally accomplished that.
I can write pages to express how much growth happened in the past years but I would like to leave it for the people to see for themselves.
2013, will be a year of actions and not just words.
A new attempt to create a way, to have a voice, to help and build, to inspire and educate, to touch and initiate.
I joined the “Take Back Parliament”, even though people have told me that my place does not belong in politics, that I am wasting my time and efforts, that it is not going anywhere.
I smile and I understand fully what they are attempting to say and I don’t disagree, but I have a different perspective. I have nothing to lose and a lot to gain, I have a long road of lessons and I am not afraid of failing, I have so much to fight for and years of frustrations to transfer into actions.
I have met fighters, not only through the movement, but also as friends and strangers struggling to get by, I want them to see what we could accomplish if we dare. I don’t simply want to challenge the system, I want to create a better system, even though I might not know better, I am willing to learn to create better and know better. I want to grow and share the growth.
I am tired of keeping my mouth shut, I am helping a person in need for a day knowing tomorrow he will be in need again, I want to provide the new generation with better options.
I will not despair.